New starts and directions
So I started reading Thessalonians. Paul's letter to one of the early church communities in Europe. He talks about his love for the community and how he treated them with love like a mother nursing and father's love with encouraging and exhorting. Now I am not feeling too nurture-y this morning as I had to haul my six year old out of mass for his wiggles, hiding under the chair, and general lack of following directions making my worship experience non-existant. After an unrepentant timeout and spank we left church early. Now I have only had to do that like 2-3 times in my whole life. And it feels like the very little open space I have is taken from me when it happens.
Creating space has been very difficult in my life in the last year. It is easier to be mindless and busy than to create quiet, and space in my life. I guess between the kids having to fill empty spaces with voices and actions and Joe's ongoing recovery from complications from pancretitis-- if I quiet down I will be faced will a mountain to climb in spiritual growth. This is one small step on that path-- back to finding spiritual space and reasoning and thinking in my life-- instead of just surviving day to day fulfill all the roles in my life society expects me to be: caring mother and energetic housekeeper, loving and enduring wife, and systematic, efficient, and caring teacher. The well is been poured out for so long, I need it filled back up. Music does that for me, but also research and learning. Which has been lacking in my life as of late.
Time to focus on the positive. My plan is God's Word today magazine for which this month is focusing on 1Thessalonians, Philippians, Colossians, Phileomon. Getting my paper journal out for my actual prayer list. I do pray for my friends and am honest when I tell them I will. I jsut need to start physically writing it down I think.
"We give thanks to God always for all of you, remembering you in our prayers, unceasingly calling to mind your work of faith and labor of love and endurance in hope of our Lord Jesus Christ, before our God and Father" 1 Thessalonians 1: 2-3
This is not to say I will change my habits and drop my socializing it is just me trying to take back some of my crazy life of the last year or so and create a clean heart and sweep the cobwebs from my soul a bit.
Creating space has been very difficult in my life in the last year. It is easier to be mindless and busy than to create quiet, and space in my life. I guess between the kids having to fill empty spaces with voices and actions and Joe's ongoing recovery from complications from pancretitis-- if I quiet down I will be faced will a mountain to climb in spiritual growth. This is one small step on that path-- back to finding spiritual space and reasoning and thinking in my life-- instead of just surviving day to day fulfill all the roles in my life society expects me to be: caring mother and energetic housekeeper, loving and enduring wife, and systematic, efficient, and caring teacher. The well is been poured out for so long, I need it filled back up. Music does that for me, but also research and learning. Which has been lacking in my life as of late.
Time to focus on the positive. My plan is God's Word today magazine for which this month is focusing on 1Thessalonians, Philippians, Colossians, Phileomon. Getting my paper journal out for my actual prayer list. I do pray for my friends and am honest when I tell them I will. I jsut need to start physically writing it down I think.
"We give thanks to God always for all of you, remembering you in our prayers, unceasingly calling to mind your work of faith and labor of love and endurance in hope of our Lord Jesus Christ, before our God and Father" 1 Thessalonians 1: 2-3
This is not to say I will change my habits and drop my socializing it is just me trying to take back some of my crazy life of the last year or so and create a clean heart and sweep the cobwebs from my soul a bit.
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